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Welcome. I am the psychowrecker, a name that infers a certain anarchistic nihilism (?). Possibly, but I would describe myself as neither an anarchist nor a nihilist and, though I am of reasonable intelligence, my political leanings (if they lean anywhere), lean in the direction of the “pinko left”. In fact, the name choice is more to do with idea of wrecking the mind: my mind, your mind, making me/you think, or re-think, testing established social, cultural or economic paradigms by proposing alternatives. It’s a play on words: a ‘psycho wrecker’ is somebody to avoid in dark alleys or, it could be someone who is in the habit of wrecking psychos, again, someone to avoid in dark alleys. But am I a psycho or even a wrecker and are my grandiose designs for wrecking minds likely to be consigned to the bottom of a million plus Google search result of a psychopathic neo-Nazi looking for some cheap web thrills or personal validation.

According to the Microsoft behemoth the slang terms ‘psycho’ are: an offensive term for somebody who has a psychiatric or personality disorder or, an offensive term meaning behaving in an uncontrolled and unpredictable way but according to my psychotherapist, I am neither. A psychiatric review established that I am full of internalised rage that expresses itself in bouts of severe and debilitating depression, which is probably too much information for the opening entry on a blog but the realisation that there are now millions of blogs on the web and that only a small percentage of them are actually read by persons other than the people who post them, begets me an uneasy confidence that this sort of personal revelation is likely to go completely unnoticed in the grand scheme of things. These blog entries are most likely to be records of my inner dialogue and will probably remain sacrosanct confessions to my internal god: who is by my reckoning, a woman and therefore, in the Jungian analysis of the psyche, the representative and spokesperson for my ‘anima’: she “talks quietly but carries a big stick” to misquote Teddy.

I’m sure that will do for now, so welcome, welcome me to the wide wonderful world of the blogosphere – that’s www.blogosphere.co.nz.